Monday, Apr. 26, 2004 / 7:50 p.m.
Mommy

Mommy dearest

Give me another smack

Tell me how I've been so naughty

Because I interrupted your time

To shop for and spoil yourself

Yeah, I've got a cold

But I can buck it, right mom?

Just don't cough on you

God forbid you might get sick

So I'll snivel alone

You have your own creative history

A different version of the truth

And in it you never left me on the side of the road when I was seven

You never tossed me out like the trash

But I fucking remember

So maybe I'm delusional

For not believing all your lies

But I know there's a special place in hell

For selfish bitches like you mom

And I'll stop crying now

Cause you'll just smack me harder

Isn't that right you self-involved bitch

Wanna tell them all how you split my lip when I was little?

Or when you tackled me to the ground and gave me a black eye

Then shipped me off to dance class.

I swear you fucking bitch

If I ever see you talk about what a great parent you are

And how I turned out so well because of you

I'm gonna go ballistic on your ass

And not a jury in the world can convict me

I'm crazy because of you, bitch

You drove me over the edge

So just give me my fucking hush money

And maybe I tell

24 years keeping your god damn secrets

Maybe I feel like shouting now

And maybe I feel like bashing in your skull

And watching you bleed

I'm tired of bleeding me, bitch

I want to bleed you now

I've had enough pain

It's time for yours

So tell me again how you hate me, Ma

Tell me how I'm awful and bad and wrong

But you better fucking watch out bitch

Cause I've been learning how to fight

And I'm sure I can kill you now

Get the fuck out of my head

Get the fuck out of my life

Get the fuck out of the world

God, I just wish you'd die

Apparently my wishing counts for shit

And don't worry about your little girl, mommy

Even if I fuck every guy I see

I can never be the whore you are

And who's my father again, mom?

Exactly

And I've been taking care of myself for twenty years

So it's second nature

But don't fucking show up at my door

When I make it big, begging for money, demanding cars and vacations and jewelry galore

Don't try to guilt me and say that you're owed it

Because I'll just laugh and say that you've blown it

Because at this moment, I claim I'm an orphan

I don't want you in my life any further

And I'm just going to pretend that you died

And tell all my friends that cause you never tried

So fuck off, bitch and leave me alone

I don't want you in my life

I'm not going home

And if you expect something better from me

Then you should just know it's the way you raised me.