Sunday, May. 11, 2008 / 10:25 p.m.
Persephone Complex

After all you've done
You've hurt me again and again
Flaunted her in my face
Lied to everyone for months and swayed people to believe you weren't evil
But still I can't turn off my feelings for you

I don't remember swallowing this mustard seed
But you must have slipped it in my drink
Because I find myself pulled into your hell
Again and again and again
Against my will

The past kidnaps me, the few times you were nice to me
Keep playing in my head
Why can't I ever get over you
Why am I drowning
I'm tired of being your victim
I'm tired of the eternal winter

I'm going to run, you won't find me
If I have to give myself a lobetomy I will get you
Out of my mind
Pick out the pieces that are full of you and leave them on the floor

I can't take the winter
I can't take this cold
I can't take remembering
I can't take seeing you with her

I'd fucking stab you in the eye with a trident then bandage your wound
What is wrong with me?
Why can't I just move on
Why can't I just leave
I need to leave
Today